Critical Self-assessment 5 – Research

I submitted my first ever paper in early April to Advanced Materials. Writing it is a tedious journey. It took four months. I found it is very helpful to have the first draft ready as early as possible so that you know what is missing in the paper, and then you have a direction in planning experiments. Also, Whitesides’ advice on writing an outline first is an effective approach for organizing the data. Organizing references is challanging as well. The help of Endnote is indispensable through out the process. I hope after this first one, my next paper would be less time-consuming. (Nah, it never is.)

Failure as a reflective moment

Failing in the GH residence adviser is a negative feedback.  Probably it means that I am not fit for this position, in terms of skill set and personality, so instead of trying hard to fit myself into what I may not excel, I should look elsewhere and keep my energy focused on things that I am really interested and good at. It also makes me think about why I do what I do. I ask myself this question about the When Pigs Fly workshop.

It turns out that I like people different from me, and enjoy exchanging ideas and engaging in vigorous and yet civilized debate. So I love what I do in WPF. Besides, there is a need in a community like graduate house for people with diverse cultural and professional backgrounds to connect and exchange, in a meaningful way and in depth. So besides being my passion, it also feeds the needs of such a community and would be a contribution to the local community, which is the essence of WPF.

The tranquilizing effect of failure

After the first interview, my application for graduate house residence advisor, international student, came to an end. And somehow, I feel my mind is cooled, and whenever that happens, I know it is the best time to write something because there won’t be any trace of ego exerting, conscious or unconscious. The inner self is humbled.

I was watching the Champion Leagure Final this afternoon, and to my disappointment, Man. United lost the match. They lost it because of their arrogance, which reminds me the quote of Bob Noyce “Success breeds complacency. Complacency breeds failure. Only the paranoid survives.”

I wouldn’t go as far as seeking failures from time to time in order to gain a moment of tranquility, but it seems to me that failing something every now and then is a necessary component to balance the mind, which often stays too excited with its own product.

Cricital Self-Assessment 5 — Health

To keep the body in good health is a duty… otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear.
– Gautama Buddha,’The Enlightened One’

It has been eight months since my last self-assessment. Over the last eight months, I have experienced steady improvement in my physical conditions, which is mainly attributed to regular exercises and a healthy diet. Tae Kwon Do has become an indispensable part of my life, and I am impressed by the pace of my own progress: I am a blue belt now. I have explored the effect of several more herbs and incorporated several new foods into my diet.

Through the exercises and my daily self-observation, I am more and more convinced that the strength of the mind relies heavily on the strength of the body. I cannot think clearly nor fully when I am tired or when my body does not function properly. Besides thinking, fatigue and any malfunction of the body also affect the emotional stability. Anger and impatience, cynicism and pessimism can kick in if I am not watchful enough. To guard against those negative emotions and thoughts, proper rest and self-awareness are vital. In a word, the brain cannot work without a working body.

A week at Stanford: Only the paranoid survive

I arrived at San Fransisco airport on 30 Dec. 2008 for a 12-day trip in Bay Area, to visit my aunt’s family and friends. After skiing in Lake Tahoe over the new year, I spent a week at Stanford, reading, writing, and meeting old friends. Chatting with old friends is one of the most enjoyable things in life. We have talked about lives, people we know, and mostly plans for the future.

One friend is preparing LSAT while doing his materials engineering PhD, and he plans to apply for a joint degree in Law school. The prospect of being among the first waves of Chinese oversea students obtaining both PhD and JD and joining the elite group of lawyers drives him. He has even worked out his schedule of the application, from taking LSAT prep course, to test date, to the year of application.

Another friend, who quit Intel before joining an EE master program, is searching for something more interesting to do for her life. She took me to the headquarter of Intel, where she used to work. I had a chance to learn about the history behind Intel and how the chips are made. The personal stories of the founders, Robert Noyce and Gordon Moores, as well as the first CEO Andrew Grove, are the most intriguing among all the technologies and science demonstrations. One picture showing all three of them injured either from skiing trip or some other sports is hilarious. One quote from Andrew Grove has a lasting impression on me: ” Success breeds complacency. Complacency breeds failure. Only the paranoid survive.”

The last friend I met is in her first year in business school. Heavy course loads have consumed most of her energy, but she still looks lively. Stanford business school offers her a big jump in her career, and she is looking for something big for her life. With the knowledge of what she enjoys doing and a realistic picture of what the world could offer, she has laid out several priorities for her career without losing sight of other options in this dire economic situation.

Most of the three conversations revolves around our future plans , not surprisingly, given our age. These talks help me refine my own career plans. Though the details of the plan still need fuller considerations, the rationale seems to have emerged: Use what I enjoy doing and what I am good at to satisfy the need of the society. The first half is personal. The second half, which is more important, is to ensure the plan is relevant to my time. Curiosity is sometimes aimless, especially in science, so relevance helps keep the aimless creature on the right track. Being relevant to the current need of the society also adds significance to the work, and serves as a perpetual source of motivation.

So the question is what is relavent. On the science and technology side, the big things are new energy, biotechnologies, (especially bio-pharmaceutical revolutions), bioscience (the origins of life), nanotechnology (especially quantum computation and new materials), information technology, neuroscience (especially the answer of what is consciousness), space science and technology (especially the prospect of space travel).  On the social/political side, the rise of China and India, the intergration of people from every corners of the world into an exceedingly connected world, the healthy aging of the superpower US, and the prevention of any large scale war. On the humanitarian side, poverty, the access to equal opportunity of education for the poor, fair distribution of wealth among nations and their citizens, spiritual harmony among various religious groups.

What one man can do is little, but as long as it is rightly guided by conscience, the contribution will be meaningful, and hopefully significant.

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Reading People

Vesper Lynd: [after discussing poker skills on the train] What else can you surmise, Mr. Bond?

James Bond: About you, Miss Lynd? Well, your beauty’s a problem. You worry you won’t be taken seriously.

Vesper Lynd: Which one can say of any attractive woman with half a brain.

James Bond: True. But this one overcompensates by wearing slightly masculine clothing. Being more aggressive than her female colleagues. Which gives her a somewhat *prickly* demeanor, and ironically enough, makes it less likely for her to be accepted and promoted by her male superiors, who mistake her insecurities for arrogance. Now, I’d have normally gone with “only child,” but by the way you ignored the quip about your parents… I’m going to have to go with “orphan.”

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Culture = Matrix

Morpheus: … Let me tell you why you’re here. You’re here because you know something. What you know you can’t explain. But you feel it. You’ve felt it your entire life. That there’s something wrong with the world. You don’t know what it is but it’s there, like a splinter in your mind driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me. Do you know what I’m talking about?

Neo: The Matrix?

Morpheus: Do you want to know what IT is? The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us, even now in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work, when you go to church, when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

I am a huge fan of Matrix, partly because of its special effects and actions, partly because of its sci-fi content, but most of my lasting enthusiasm is due to its social-political metaphor of institutionalized control. In the movie, humans are wired into a neural-interactive simulation program called Matrix, which controls human minds in order for machines to extract bio-energy from human bodies. Human are batteries to run the machine city, and they are not born, but grown in fields in the city. The machine city is a strong metaphor of any society that controls the mind of its people in order to convert them into work forces. Every society does such conversion through propaganda, formal schooling, religious activities, and mass media. Though each society has a different degree of control, there is always control, often legitimized by arguing it’s for the society’s survival. The metaphor can refer to a nation, a religious group, or even a cultural group.

In Cultures and Organizations – Software of the Mind, Geert Hofstede and Gert Jan Hofstede describe briefly in its introductory chapter how a culture transmits its core values from generation to generation. These values are the deepest level of our mental software, wrapped by rituals, heroes and symbols. The layered manifestation of cultures is illustrated by the “Onion” image , shown below. (Adapted from the book)

Those values, which we receive when very young, are usually unconscious to us. An awareness of these latent values can increase our self-knowledge and our emotional intelligence. It will also help us establish a strong sense of identity in a society where we constantly move around the globe and meet people with drastically different background. And in today’s world of fast globalization, with extensive connection among every corner of the planet, survival demands such self-knowledge: it is no longer a virtue; it is a necessity.

Arguably, cultural values and values derived from individual personality completes a person’s basic value system (see below, adapted from the book), but the system is not static. Individual’s values can change due to personal experience. Some of them can be unlearned; new ones may be incorporated, which means endless opportunity for personal growth and development.